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the illusion of being "lost" is possibly one of the most difficult aspects of existing in the material world. we are indeed material beings in every sense of the word, so no matter how hard we fight against it, we will always feel lost at one point or another. such is part of the reason we are here in the first place, so we can feel these things and understand what it means to be physical.

we find our way by simply returning to the self- the true self. not the body, not the mind, but the soul. not the thing that hears our thoughts, but the thing that speaks them. this self transcends this reality, and is our true nature (cf. dharmakaya). the mind obfuscates this true nature of the self, and our existence lends its purpose to realizing this truth. the important thing to note is that this reality is not found anywhere but in the self. of course, one could claim that they found this externally, but the true realization lies in the fact that these two things are the same.

whenever we are feeling lost, the answer is always found within, no matter how this chain of realizations manifests.

find company and love in all things. being caught up in material reality is bound to happen in today's world. rather than viewing this through a lens of dismay, let it empower you to break free from the societal standards that have tried to force us into buying into their antics.

find love in the cool fall breeze. tell yourself, "i recognize that this breeze is imbued with the same divine nature found in myself and in all other things." feel the air gently touch your skin and roll away. internalize the power of the air, its dynamic nature, its intelligence, and its wisdom. understand that on the deepest level, there is no difference between you, the air you breathe, or anything else.

everything is about you, and by "you," i mean the real you. not the body, not the mind. you. understand this and project this energy outwards and allow all others to recognize and understand their true divine nature.

the concept of emptiness is one that i have long tried to understand. it was not until today that i felt i have begun to understand.


it's important to note that i meditated on the chakras before the guru yoga- this practice was essential in embracing and strengthening the ability to feel the connection between my body, mind, and breath. (*)

for my mandala offering, i took a somewhat new approach- i meditated on what the mandala really is, this was indeed my offering. in the deepest of senses, the mandala is a representation of myself. to put things into logical terms, it's a type of information, it's everything.

as i am preparing to further explore the three kayas, i thought it beneficial to offer a meditation on emptiness as well. i truly felt what it means to be empty. my mind was completely silenced, and it was beautiful. it's quite difficult to convey the idea in English, and i'm not entirely sure if it's even possible at all. it was true detachment, the true me. i rested in this emptiness and felt it fill my being with gentleness, it felt like home.

i then continued with the yoga- but it was slightly different this time. everything was done fully telepathically, i had no thoughts or direction. everything was taking place in a different state of consciousness that felt very familiar. i felt a deep connection with the beings i was communicating with and it was more personal than i was used to. additionally, for the first time in a long time, i had a humorous moment with a deity.

at the end of the practice, i caught a glimpse of the clear light. the interesting thing is that it didn't stick out a huge amount to me, it felt like it was normal. i didn't dwell on the experience, i simply acknowledged that it happened. this is another thing that i find difficult to convey in English. i think the best way i can describe it is that it was like seeing a color that i have never seen before, but i have seen it before. as all things are, this description is very open to interpretation, which is a wonderful testament to the nature of clear light.

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What will happen to me after I die? I dont know.

Probably will be born a nigger in your next life, one with down syndrome prefeeably

I know that you think how I think and feel, but you don't know how I know, just as soon as the water will flow.