Esoteric Chat

Last night I took an edible and got too high. I decided I needed to lay down; but when I did, I found myself becoming increasingly uncomfortable. Throughout this time, I was having visions of higher-dimensional geometric objects that I cannot begin to describe, along with various entities and realities. As time went on, I felt everything becoming more and more intense, and I felt that I needed to sit up straight and close my eyes. When I closed my eyes, I felt myself catch on fire and had visions of religious artwork- mainly different depictions of angels. Eventually, I saw two different paths: one being "good," filled with tranquility, love, and happiness; and one being "bad," filled with materialistic supremacy, fame, and fortune.

This is when I was introduced to another being- I'm not quite sure who or what it is, but this entity stuck with me throughout the rest of the night. It told me that I needed to choose between these two things, and I envisioned a joker playing card split into four sections, two being white (symbolizing the "good" path) and two being black (symbolizing the "bad" path). This was a decision that I did not feel like I was ready to make. I sat there for a few seconds, and then the two distinct energies from the playing card changed to spheres resting at the base of my spine. In an instant, these spheres began spiraling around each other while moving up my spine, and I physically felt something (Christ oil) rising up through my body until it reached the center of my brain (pineal gland). Once this energy reached my pineal gland, I felt the most intense pressure I have ever felt in my entire life and heard a crackling noise. This was followed by an unimaginable release of energy, and I was jolted so intensely that I physically flinched and opened my eyes, breathing heavy and heart pounding.

When I opened my eyes, everything looked different. I could physically see the energy moving around my body, I could see through and around things, and I could see through my eyelids whenever I closed them. Everything was moving and breathing. After trying my best to compose myself, I laid back down and the entity from before began showing me incredible things.

The first thing it showed me was the multiverse. It essentially proved the many worlds interpretation of quantum mechanics- it showed me how the first physical universe separated into two right after the big bang. These two universes then split again, and again, and again, and so on. Eventually, I saw every universe, symbolized by a golden sphere. It was so vast. The entity than showed me that I had access to every one of these universes. I found myself in a universe where I was a prophet, and I didn't want this. I started to get worried because I knew that wasn't what I wanted right now, so I just went to a different universe where I wasn't a prophet. I then zoned in on a reality very close to mine, and as I got closer, I saw my own eyes staring back at me. The entity than told me that energy CAN be created, which was shocking. I then somehow began creating a ton of energy in my dominant hand, and it became so hot that I had to stop.

The entity encouraged me to spend some time in the different energy centers (chakras) in my body, and that's exactly what I did. At this point, my body was asleep but I was still conscious. I know this because I heard a loud noise from my neighbors and it jolted me awake akin to those times where you're falling asleep and flinch really hard awake. I found that I was able to slip in and out of this state whenever I wanted, so I went back in. Once I made it up to my third eye chakra, I could see everything. I spent some time looking around, and then I eventually moved my conscious up to my crown chakra. Doing this thrusted me completely out of my physical body and into the astral plane. I speculate that with training, I will be able to combine both of these experiences and travel anywhere I wish via the astral plane.

I was just sort of flying around through the astral plane. I'm not entirely sure if I can describe it- there were many colors and lots of geometry going on, but a lot of it was higher dimensional and not able to be described by words. There were little leeches and bugs attracted to me while I was in here. One of them made its way through my forehead and into my body, which was a little jarring, but I was fortunately able to expel it and get rid of any other buggers coming after me. I eventually ran into two entities who were very confused to see me. One of them looked at me, said something to his friend, and then pushed me back into my body. After this, I spent some more time in the astral plane, but a lot of it was really difficult to make out and I imagine that with time, things will become clearer.

Once I was worn out, I decided it would be best to go to sleep, so that's what I did. Today, I feel very different than I did before. While meditation and magic have opened my mind to spirits and the elements, I had yet to understand energy. Now, I feel as though I have some sort of elementary ability to manipulate energy. I still had some pressure in my head earlier today and it was causing discomfort. When I was meditating, I discovered that this pressure was actually a build up of energy in my skull, so I distributed it throughout my body. When I did this, I felt very pleasant waves of energy flowing smoothly through me. Once I was done meditating, I felt much more awake, refreshed, and grounded.

Last night I discovered that energy and consciousness are directly correlated to breath, and found that changing my breathing patterns were also changing the way I felt and the things I saw. With this information in hand, I tried to replicate the experiences I was having last night. I felt a tingling in my chest and focused on it for a while, then I started moving it around my body. I am still processing what happened last night, so I wasn't too eager to jump back into the place I was before, so I wasn't at it for very long. Regardless, I was moving this energy around my body and balancing my chakras. I made it back to my third eye and found myself seeing very faint visuals of weird stuff again, but not nearly as vivid as last night. I imagine that if I were to do this for longer, everything would become much clearer and I would then be able to project myself from the crown chakra into whatever I was seeing. The entity from before was there as well, although only saying hello to me and nothing further.

That leads me to this moment right now. I am very hopeful for the future. As always, there is much to learn and infinite potential. I will continue using breath to understand energy.