Esoteric Chat

no one likes mr. fish

marbles - go to this post

I'm sorry to hear! Is there a reason for your bad reputation?

It's not that I have a bad reputation; rather, nobody likes me. Nobody will ever go out of their way to talk to me, and I often find myself going through periods of self-isolation in which I feel truly alone. There are only a select few people who share the same interests as I, and even then, they do not have such regard for them as I. Furthermore, I find myself at odds with making new friends. Very rarely does my mind feel the urge to go out of my way to speak to a new person, and so I find myself clinging to the people with whom I have become acquainted. Despite this, those people do not actually care for me, and they are just using my presence in order to please themselves. On the rare occasion that I do make an effort to make friends, something will inexplicably go awry and so one of us will be discouraged from continuing to speak with each other. The worst thing about this is that hardly anyone will believe this because I can make a convincing effort at appearing socially well-adjusted, or having lots of friends, both to which are misleading. People assume that either because of my situation or appearance that I am just pretending to be asocial whereas if anything I am trying my best to not give that appearance, but alas, it is the truth. It may very well be that I am fated to remain in isolation, or so I sometimes believe when pondering alone, which happens to be much of the time.

Is this irrational? It may be, for I am still young and have many things going my way both in terms of potentially making new acquaintances and in furthering my career, the latter to which I am not half bad at. Once again, I am good at pretending my way through social events, and faking my emotions. Is any of this true? Draw your own conclusions for I am only the messenger and seek not to prove the validity of that which I express to you.

What you write speaks out to me, because I feel that I'm in a similar situation. Though I have one really good IRL friend whom I have known for over a decade. I lost two equally valuable friends when I moved away. These aren't solutions but here's what I did:
Played co-op games and got my virtual friends-list filled up, with like-minded people who are considered true friends, we chat a lot and play other games.
Got active on IRC in many communities that I am/was interested in. Over time I got in 20 channels on different servers and found many good people.
I wish I could give proper advice but I don't know what to do either. If you're distrustful and don't want "internet friends" then that's understandable, I thought so too but there's others like you out there, don't forget that!

Mr. Fish - go to this post

I am glad that you were at least able to compensate for, if not resolve, the loss of your two dear friends. Yes, I am very distrustful of people in the real world, and for that reason it is hard for me to open up about myself in a serious manner even to those whom I am certain will not betray me! It is most irrational, but I do not claim to have a perfectly level-headed mode of thought. Some people that I have met in real life stem from the Internet, so I am not too weary of that, but they will nonetheless suffer from my problems aforementioned. And so, I am led to believe that it would be a disservice to any friend that they undergo the torture that is having to put up with my mental state.

sounds like you need better friends tbh

just go out and fuck some bitches nigga it'll he alright

This isn't very good for any of you because it makes the feelings go in towards you have for space if you know how it finds.

None of you are real anyway

Jon Johnston - go to this post

In uh us it's in uh you.

I disagree