Esoteric Chat

It's been a hot minute since I last checked this site. Last time I checked in I thought it couldn't get any worse. Obviously I was wrong. At least account signups are on now, maybe that's not a good thing after all considering what the homepage looks like at a glance. The only reason I'm even making this post right now is the possibility that perhaps, maybe, some of the userbase might still be here.

I may as well just come out and reveal some developments that have gone down since I was last here. I know this probably won't be well received but heck, maybe this community is different now. Here it goes. I'm trans, pansexual, gender fluid, sometimes nonbinary, amoral, sadomasochistic, a green anarchist (inspired by Ted Kaczynski's manifesto), nihilistic, a furry, a sexual assault survivor, autistic, I have OCD, and I was recently diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. I got treatment for my depression a few months ago so that's mostly better now, at least. I'm still struggling with suicidal ideations unfortunately.

I know that this forum was once le big spooky notsee central where my account would have been suspended within minutes of making this post but it seems like things have changed around here. The change looks like it's mostly for the worst but maybe there's been some positive changes too. Probably not, but what do I have to lose?

I probably won't be dropping in too often to be honest. If this post, as I suspect, gets negativity beneath it then I definitely won't be coming back. I just want to say in case it helps anyone that I was once in your position, standing in your shoes. I was a far right extremist little edgy boi social recluse just like you guys. That is, until I met my (at the time boyfriend) gender nonconforming partner. At first my views made me adverse to them (at the time him) but a battle deep inside me began that day. They (at the time he) helped me through those turbulent times and luckily my true self won out. My attraction which grew into a deep love for my partner (at that time just lover) was too strong for my rotten little racist homophobic righty side. I realized that everything I thought mattered didn't. For the first time in my life I felt happy, and loved, and no longer lonely. I never knew I could feel that way and above all I really loved it. My new life was so much better than my old one, I would never go back in a heartbeat. I admit I still have my own set of issues and struggles but I'm far better off now than I was in my old geteso days. It turns out being a hateful, lonely, pathetic husk of a human being rotting in front of your computer monitor is a horrific life. It hurts yourself and those around you. Please, follow my example and turn from your ways for the sake of your own happiness and wellbeing. If you want to remain a bigot and sit around hurting people's feelings on the internet then that's your choice, and you can rot in hell for all I care. But anyone with even a sliver of doubt about their life choices should take my post into consideration. Anyway, I just thought I should share my story with you guys and hopefully open someone's eyes to the wide world out there. Goodbye.